i'm messed up

mind, BODYY, and soul.
i need someone to save me,
because i can't keep rescuing myself.

substance control

these days i live off
gum and cigarettes
i'm going to be what's next.

completely irrelevant,

the one who i continue to love the most
is the one i never gave a chance.
i protected myself from getting hurt,
and in the end i would have, i know it.
but i still can't help but wonder
if that short period of bliss would have been worth it.
and now i can only watch from far away
as he continues to be juvenile,
and hope he realizes it too.
and then maybe i'll try again.

so that's a first..

got asked out on a date on valentines day..

and i turned them down.

i've always known i'm independent but shieeett.

i'm proud of myself for not submitting to this hallmark holiday

because really, i had good reasons not too.

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whenever i wear a dresss

i feel like this

formspring.me

what's your least favorite thing about yourself?

my insecurites and lack of will power.

Ask me anything

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If you could have a super power, what would it be?

some sort of magic instant transportation, like flying or just appearing somewhere. I love traveling, and I want to go to India and Greece, but i'm afraid I will fall in love with a nativeee. So then i'd use my superpower to come back to Portland, or go somewhere else and get in trouble :)

Ask me anything

well.

finally got spring break figured out
lincoln city, oregon coast with my best friends
but what the fuck am i going to do this summer?

i really digg my new camera

feelin oh so sexyyy